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“The Peace Corps build us labor camps when they think they’re building schools.”

That’s a line from a Dead Kennedys song that changed my world view when I was 18. I’ve always known we were being lied to, and that the PTB (powers that be) aren’t always out for my best interests.

That’s becoming more and more apparent, even to people who aren’t as doubtful of “the man” as me. The latest is the Fed mugging the American People for a TRILLION dollars, using a three-page memo as a gun to our heads.

“The sky is falling.” That’s the line we get whenever “they” want to sell us anything quickly: Invading Iraq, Wall Street Bailout, turning in our guns.

Here’s a few videos that will blow your mind and get you headed in the right research directions.

What the New World Order is and what you can do about it.

Congressman Ron Paul Warns Of Global Government Under Obama (audio)

Civilian Disarmament: Prelude to Tyranny (Part 1 of 5)

Obama’s plan to disarm law-abiding citizens (text)

Video about how disarmament went down in Australia

Chuck Baldwin on third-parties (I don’t agree with Chuck Baldwin, or the Constitution Party on moral issues, but this is solid info). (Audio)

So, people, if you’ve been following my posts and work for years, like many have been on here, you know I have NEVER said “Send this to your friends.” That ain’t my style. But, people, before the SHTF (shit hits the fan), SEND THIS POST TO FIVE FRIENDS, AND TELL THEM TO SEND IT TO FIVE FRIENDS.

URL to share: http://tinyurl.com/6lesv3

My friend James Jose’s fitness training classes in Australia are using Bomb’s music to motivate people during their workouts. And James told me that some of the DIY business methodologies in $30 Film School actually helped him start his business. How cool is that?

Here’s their FAQ (Word doc.)

His workout is different, very new ideas, kind of a punk rock ethic in training. They have taken the industry by storm and have even been getting praised by training directors in as far away as China.

Here are the gym logos, designed by KMFDM artist, Brute:

Me and Alan’s book YouTube: An Insider’s Guide to Climbing the Charts is currently #16,697 on Amazon. May not sound like a lot, but it is. That’s a great sales rank, when you consider that there are about 10 million books on Amazon, and when you consider that our YouTube book doesn’t come out for four more days. These are all pre-orders. $30 Film School generally hovers around a rank of 30,000 on Amazon, and it sells well, so we’re doing better than that with a book that is not even out yet.

The book is also number EIGHT on Amazon in the category Books > Science > Technology > Social Aspects. Even cooler is that number seven on that list, right above our book, is my ALL-TIME FAVORITE NON-FICTION BOOK, The Age of Spiritual Machines: When Computers Exceed Human Intelligence
by Ray Kurzweil.

So we’re in darned good company!

All my other books are doing well on Amazon today, four of them are ranked below 60,000 on Amazon.

It’s a good day.

Recently Aspire Visa canceled their entire credit card line, even for people in good standing. They canceled mine. I’d never missed a payment, and that was my one decent card with a larger limit, and I was using it to build more credit.

So if you have one and get a letter from them, you probably didn’t do anything wrong. They’re doing that to everyone, even though they don’t say that in the letter. It’s kind of a pricky move to not explain it in the letter. The letter just says “account suspended.”

Here’s a consumer complaint site with many many many posts from people who had the same thing happen this week.

Kinda sucks to spend years building credit with them, never miss a payment, then have them do this, and NOT EXPLAIN IT. Their website doesn’t even say anything about it. The only difference is that the “sign up for Aspire” link is gone, and all that’s left is the “make payment” link. (Of course, you still have to pay the card off to not get a negative mark on your credit, but I somehow doubt paying it off will get you positive marks on your credit score.)

Just another smallish example of the continuing economomic disaster from things we have no say in and no control over.

I had a dream the other night that I was at a party, and someone came up behind me and started giving me a backrub while I was standing talking to Debra Jean. I turned around and saw that the guy massaging me was Obama. I started to pull away, but he kept reassuring me, “It’s OK, it will make you feel better.” I started to let him rub my shoulders, letting my guard down a bit. He was rubbing me with one hand, then I realized he was reaching around with his other hand into my pockets looking for my guns, to take them away.

Gotta stop reading NRA magazines right before bedtime.

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(LINK: Obama on gun control.)

My long-time friend Debra has a rockin’ new CD of her band Devi now out, called Get Free. You can hear an MP3 of a song called “Demon in the Sack”, here. You can buy the record here.

I sing backup on the song “Demon in the Sack”, and DJ makes some noises in the middle of it too. I think the song is partially about me too, or at least a former me, particularly the line “He goes out for a pack of smokes, comes back in five years. 15 minutes later, she’s undressed.”

MEW!

Below are our cats Charlie and Peanut checking out the first copy off the press of my new book, YouTube: An Insider’s Guide to Climbing the Charts (from O’Reilly - by Alan Lastufka and Michael W. Dean.) It ships from Amazon next week, but you can order now on Amazon, HERE.

It should be in Borders Books and Barnes & Nobel stores all across America a week or two after that.

The book has a lot of great information, much of it from Alan. He did the tech stuff, I did the “Punk rock cheerleading” sections. There’s also many nifty photos (including some of our cats, and some of DJ and I taken by my friend London May.)

(These below are not in the book, they’re of the book. The second one of these three makes fairly amazing and somewhat spooky computer wallpaper, if you click on it to get the big one and use that.)

Yup. Charlie loves a good book.

Charlie also loves The Good Book. (No, the pix below aren’t posed like the above ones are. She loves to lean on books. Don’t know why. Moral guidance?):

Anyway, it’s been a long year of working hard. I need to rest and not do anything much for a few days. (Yeah, like that’ll happen!)

I’m reading a book called You and the Police by Boston T. Party

I highly recommend it. It’s written by a smart guy who really knows his shit.
It’s about how to deal with the cops, under many different situations.

One thing he mentions are a few different high-profile 2ed Amendment rights advocates who were allegedly set up by the feds (like having illegal machine gun parts shipped to them without them knowing about it , then arresting them when they sign for the package)
Here’s one of the guys he talks about, who was set up and served five years in prison:
http://www.keepandbeararms.com/NewsArchives/XcNewsPlus.asp?cmd=view&articleid=298

I’m rethinking my new “Sex and Guns” film project idea. I just think that with the controversy level of the topics of both films, especially combined, could attract stuff like that. My ideas on the first and second amendment (and the 4th amendment) may not match that of the powers that be. (Especially with the impending regime change. Who knows yet what they’re thinking? Though I have a few postulations which may not be that far off from the truth.) I feel strongly about my beliefs, but not strongly enough to go to prison for them if there’s no need to. I am a little torn: I feel a need to educate and spread truth in a world of lies, but also feel like “Why fucking take a (figurative?) bullet for a world that’s mostly cat-food-on-the-hoof and doesn’t care?” There’s “I need to help change the world” vs. “I’ve already done a lot of that, will do a lot more, but I need to pick my battles.”

Also, after putting an “open call” up on a kink forum, and gotten a few replies, I’ve realized something I should have thought of: many folks who are into kink are so damn sure that THEIR WAY of doing it is the only way, it would be a nightmare to do this film. I talked to several very sane people who were cool and not like this, but even that was a lot of logistics, a lot of back and forth. But I ran into a few who were like “Why is my unique and special group of people (Transsexuals, left-handed Irish-Jewish single mothers from the Milwaukee, etc., whatever…) not represented in what you’re planning! I am being oppressed by you!” A small but very vocal (and armed!) sub-group of gun people are the same way, me thinks.

It’s different doing non-fiction books I’ve been involved in previously, the Film School book, Dollie’s “SM Diary”, the Fuck book, etc. They don’t claim to be representational of a whole scene, they only say “Here’s how I do it.” I guess the DIY or DIE movie did represent a “movement” or a “scene”, but I had to interview 40 people, use 30 of them in the film, and some people still said it wasn’t representative of their particular and important niche or world view. (I knew that would happen, which is part of why I put “NOW GO MAKE YOUR OWN MOVIE!” at the very end of the film, in big block letters.

I sort of feel like I’m a loser if I start something and don’t finish it, but I’ve only put five days of thought and writing and contacting people into this so far. So maybe that’s not “working on the project”, maybe it’s just “research”, and my thorough research concluded with me stamping the proposal “Unfeasible.” I have done this with a few projects over the past couple years. These proposed films, and two 40-page book proposals for books I may never write: “$30 Life School” and “Politics for the Rest of Us.” But everything I do, even if it never sees light of day, helps me formulate my world plan going forward. So there is no loss.

I guess I feel I’m at a crossroads with my life and about what to do next, artistically. I do have trouble taking time to rest between projects. The YouTube book shipped to the printer last Thursday, and by Sunday night, I’d written the complete funding/budget/proposal/treatment/website for these two new movies, which now, I’ll probably never make. And I have to remind myself, while I have started three projects I probably won’t finish in the past three years, here’s what I have done in the past three years that was completed and did see the light of day:

• Finished the Selby movie.
• co-wrote the YouTube book.
• co-wrote “DIY Now: Digital Audio
• produced and recorded 180 episodes of SAC podcast.
• produced and recorded 80 episodes of Clone The Homeless podcast.
• produced and recorded 20 episodes of Deal Machine podcast.
• produced and recorded 12 episodes of Radio Free Nestlandia podcast.
• Recorded three podiobooks.
• wrote the fuck book
• co-wrote SM Diary
• Co-wrote The Plump Buffet
• Wrote and recorded some good songs.
• Shared over 1 million “radio show from my living room” episodes in 79 countries, via BitTorrent
• spent a lot of quality time with my wife. And my cats.

Sometimes the most zen think you can do is nothing. I’m going to try, for the second or third time in a decade, to do nothing for a few days or more. Wish me luck.

MEW!

OK….I know I’ve said publicly and loudly, “I’M NEVER MAKING ANOTHER FILM AGAIN!” However……

The other day, the complete package idea for TWO new documentaries dropped out of the sky and into my soul. When the muse is that loud and clear, you just can’t say no.

Pretty picture of what I see while working. For your computer desktop.

(Above: Peanut is afraid of the dog on the cover)

The new EP “Pavlov’s Dog” (Artcore/Damaged Records) by my old 80s Charlottesville hardcore punk band The Beef People (I played guitar) is reviewed in “Maximum Rock ‘n’ Roll” magazine this month. (Click on this link for a scan of the review, you may need to click again on the big image to enlarge it.)

Proof that old punkers don’t die, they just, oh I dunno….have unreleased tracks put out by UK labels?

Check out a song from this e.p, Pavlov’s Dog

(note, this sounds great, but the vinyl sounds even better, was professionally mastered.)

Yay.

Amelia Laine Worth
Jan 10, 1984-Nov 7, 2006

Her voice

Her obituary.

My only child died two years ago today. Here’s many photos of her, some that haven’t been seen much, some where she’s bald from chemotherapy.

When Amelia died, I was devastated. Slayed. Now, two years later, I still am. I am finally able to smile a little bit, and I can sleep the full night most nights, finally, but I am still permanently altered by her death. Still have a lot of nightmares. Still feel life isn’t fair. Still feel less like there’s a reason to “try to help the world” than I did before she died.

Amelia Laine Worth was 22. She had Leukemia. She’d had it for three years. Amelia fought a brave fight, went through dozens of procedures and scores of visits to doctors and hospitals. She’d been prodded, poked, and poisoned, all in an effort to produce a clean bill of health. Shortly before she died, she basically told me, “If this time doesn’t work, I don’t mind dying. I am just sick of all this garbage, and I just want to be a normal kid having a normal life.”

I was with her when she had her last chemotherapy. It was a new drug, one they hadn’t tried, one that had some scary side-effects. It was a last last last resort.

Amelia was in pain, so they’d given her morphine. Morphine is God’s gift of comfort for people in agony. She was too groggy from the painkiller to read the list of side effects the doctor gave her right before they hooked up the drip of chemo. She looked like a crumpled angel. I said, “Are you sure you want me to read this to you?” She said “yes.” I read it. The list enumerated everything from gas to loss of hair; loss of limb to loss of sight, brain damage or even death. And pretty much everything in between. The list of possible side-effects was two pages long, single spaced.

She made a sleepy joke about it. She said, “Well, if that’s all that might happen, let’s do it.”

They say “Whatever doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.” I’d have to add “…Except chemo.”

They say it’s is a terrible thing when a parent outlives their child. I’m here to second that emotion. I know people Amelia’s age who statistics say should be dead but aren’t. And I know people who drive drunk, have unprotected sex with street whores and pick bar fights with murderers. I know people who inject street drugs, AND who are scumbags, and people are violent, selfish, who are truly deserving to be taken out of the gene pool, who’ve pissed off a lot of badass criminal people who own firearms, but are still walking around sucking air, wasting space, and pissing people off.

My daughter didn’t smoke. She didn’t do drugs. She barely drank. She was a good person and literally opened doors for little old ladies. She was a light-filled practicing Christian, and totally true to her boyfriend. She adored animals and did volunteer work. So why is she dead?

EITHER LIFE ISN’T FAIR OR IT’S JUST IRONIC. I DO KNOW THAT MANY GOOD PEOPLE I LOVE ARE DEAD, AND EVERY SINGLE SMARMY BASTARD I’VE WISHED DEAD IS STILL ALIVE.

Amelia’s death really made me question my belief in God. Not that he exists, but that he cares. Call if self-pity on my part if you like, I just call it evolving world-view. And I will say that if you haven’t lost a kid, there’s no way you can understand this.

But life goes on, and I’m doing a little better now.

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Here’s a poem she wrote about being sick:
Subject: My Heart Feels Like Ouch
Date: Fri, 30 Jan 2004 22:44:21 -0800

Today it hurt
More than yesterday
It’s finally setting in
I feel like ouch

I wish I had a broken heart
People survive broken hearts all the time
it’s raining in my head
and that’s what my heart feels

Too many tears
not enough hugs
lots and lots of prayers
it just hurts

Some days are better than others
today isn’t that day
God, please let me be strong
I fear I can’t see the rainbow

I know I said I was not going to vote for any presidential candidate, was going to skip that and just vote on everything else, but I changed my mind IN the booth.

I voted for Bob Barr of the Libertarian Party for president.

My reason is this: I do NOT like Bob Barr as a candidate (I think he’s rather UN-libertarian, more like a shape-shifting Republician). Bob Barr was a board member of the NRA, which I do like. But I know he will not win, but here’s the thing: the more votes the Libertarian Party get, the more the party (and their positions) will be taken seriously. And I really think of all the available choices, I think the Libertarian Party is the only hope for America.